Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 20:30

i just came back from my ahma's hse..
super tired cause i had to walk back..


had to wake up earlier today cause suppose to go to my aunty's hse..
and my uncle was coming to drive us there..
in the end still late -.-


reached my aunty's hse and laze around..
than was dragged down to play table tennis wif my cousins..
and it was super boring lah..
i was only suppose to count the score-.-


than they decided to throw the ping pong balls into the swimming pool!
wtf!


i had to wade in to get it..
damn! i also got scolded..
can't really be bothered anyway..

than went toa payoh to look for slippers(:
but couldnt find anything):

went to my ahma's hse ate dinner and went home..

Sunday, December 30, 2007 @ 16:26

i'm going to my aunty's hse tmr..
zzz..
school is reopening in like 2 to 3 more days!?
so not prepared yet!
and there is streaming in sec 2!
this totally sucks..

there is a new dnt teacher called peggy -.-
dunnoe who she is..
and out lit & history teacher also change liao..
zz..
we can't bully mrs chia during history anymore..
and th new lit teacher sucks..
damn..2008 doesn't sound good at all

TAG BEFORE LEAVING! (:

@ 14:56

new blogskin looks horrible..
i thik i'll go blog skin searching for a new one!

Saturday, December 29, 2007 @ 11:00

my sister is playing a mickey mouse cooking game -.-
and i'm rushing to finish my geog hw D:
only a few more days left than school is starting..
and chinese is starting the year..
what could be worst than that?

Friday, December 28, 2007 @ 16:33

i'm blacker now cause of sentosa and netball training
& exposure to th sun without sunblock
ran two rounds outside for warm up during netball.
than did physical.
did with qinyu and sherylyn
than did team ball.
shyt! i can't seem to catch the ball..
than did 1/3 court for around 45mins straight?
cheryl didn't give us a break D:
than did sprinting..

ate opposite school again
everybody except jaselyn ate fries...

my mum is bringing me to the chinese physician ltr..
zzz..

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 @ 10:51

went to sentosa with netballers yesterday!!
met jas at kcp bus stop at 8.45
than went to j8 to wait for th rest..
met qinyu and went into th mrt station
than sherylyn & alyssa came..
we were waiting for jiamin
than clarissa,jackie and serena came
so we boarded th train thinking that jiamin is already on th train..
turns out she was still at th platform! l
ols..
she caught up wif us ltr..

reached to vivo city and waited for giant to open
bought chips and drinks.
than took th monorail to sentosa
pretty fast..
it brought us straight to th beach station
but still had to take a bus..

went to splash around in th water
our lunch was chips
hahaha..
than we played monkey and volleyball :DD
than burried jackie in th sand!
i got burried too..
quite fun actually:)

went to shower with th rest at around four..
jaselyn,clarissa and serena left first..
did some stuff in th toilet :X

than quickly changed..
went to walk around vivo city
th stuff at candy empire is very expensive leh..

took mrt back to bishan..a
te dinner at j8 than went home..

PICTURESS!

jackie & alyssa

me sitting on jiamin

fighting! haha

fight over th ball

jackie & me



alyssa and jackie








Sunday, December 23, 2007 @ 22:30

went out with aunty michelle & uncle mike..
with stephen, sonja and cheryl

went to eat at sizzler..
at toa payoh..
th place is super empty
and th food is damn nice lah..
than th adults again talk alot..
felt super bored..

left ltr..
and went to th library to enjoy air con :]
went to j8 to walk around..
feeling super tired..

sentosa tmr with netballers!!
superrrr excited!

saw this sign @ toapayoh..
what does it mean?

@ 21:03

going to sentosa tomoro with netballers ;DD

Friday, December 21, 2007 @ 17:17

I SWEAR THAT I WILL TAKE BETTER PICTURES THAN THAT BITCH!
YOU CAN HAVE MY WORD ABOUT THAT.

i just recovered frm my sore throat and i already started to eat sweet & heaty stuff.
i just dun learn do I?

four new ppl joined us today..
3 frm evergreen, 1 frm hougang

ran two rounds outside..
damn smelly lah..
they were cutting grass..
can vomit at that smell
came in last again..
kena scolded by mrs ong
than cheryl was saying, whenever she tells mrs ong that i improved, i would do badly on court and mrs ong would say that cheryl is lying..
kinda funny..but true..

did pair ball passes with jiamin
and movements
than we just realised that there was a game among ourselves
played GS in th last quater..
zz

Wednesday, December 19, 2007 @ 14:06

fk.that stupid sore throat is killing me.
every time swallow saliva oso pain.

match with nanhua today..
they are quite strong lah..
played the 2nd, 3rd and 4th quarter
second and third quater was fine..
but the fourth one sucked.
scoring stats zero%
didnt play aft that..
we lost to them by 6 i think..
28-34?
that shld be the score..

had to run six rounds aft the match..
cheryl wanted to train our stamina..
6rounds,6minutes..
came in at around 5:52?
than watched th seniors match..

ate opposite skool(again)
went home wif jaselyn and clarissa
but they stop at j8...


my sister just only came home screaming there is a frog in the lift.
LOL!
and my mum replied: th frog is most probably more scared than you!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007 @ 14:15

match with anderson today!
dere was a mix up in th timing?
some ppl were very early some were ltr..
met sherylyn,jiahui and jaselyn at the bus stop..
very worried that i was late mah..
so ask them wait for me:]

reached skool that go shoot abit..
than did warm up..
pair ball with alyssa
than did team ball..
i couldnt catch the ball lah..
dunnoe wad was wrong..

match with anderson started
played the 3rd and 4th quarter as GS
and jassy was th GK!
hahahs
quite fun actually..
and i played slightly better than last time:]
we won the match in the end!
25-8:D

watched the seniors match as well..
they are like them pro lah!
can throw such long passes!


did 1/3 court aft that..
sun so hot..
than weizhen wanted th shooters to shoot in 8 in a row
for every miss shot.
everybody had to either run one lap or 5 star jumps or 5 crunches or 5push-ups..
in th end everybody except the shooters kinda suffered lots..
but than ltr everybody else shoot
than the shooters had to do the crunches and push ups!
lols
ate lunch opposite skool
and went home with jas
we were discussing abt fringe!
HAHAHAH

Monday, December 17, 2007 @ 21:31

watched the chipmunk show at plaza sing today(:
my(stupid)sister wanted to buy snacks to eat in th theater..
it was 1050 am! what snacks does she want?
ended up buying some hotdog and went in to the theater late..
apparently our seats were like right in the middle of this ppl
so we had to squeeze our way through if we sat there..
ended up sitting at the back by ourselfs (:

walked around th whole place trying to find a bday present for my cousin..
couldnt find anything..
went back home..

shou zu started today!
finnally lah!
but the first episode was kinda emo..
all cry cry & cry..

match with anderson tomoro..
what if it rains? :/

Sunday, December 16, 2007 @ 19:47

i might be watching alvin and the chipmunks tomoro!
and i seriously think that Theodore is the cutest of chipmunk of all..
he beats pip from enchanted!
hehehe..
awww..so cute

Saturday, December 15, 2007 @ 13:30

The LETTER 'A'

Are you Available?
idk..

What is your Age?
13.

What Annoys you?
quite a lot of things actually..

THE LETTER 'B'

When is your Birthday?
17Oct

THE LETTER 'C'

What's your favorite Chocolate?
i like all types of chocolates

Who's your Crush?
nobody

When was the last time you Cried?
quite a long time ago

THE LETTER 'D'

Do you Daydream?
yeah..

What's your favorite kind of Dog?
dun hav any favourtite

What Day of the week is it?
Saturday

THE LETTER 'E'

Have you ever been in the Emergency room?
Yep..primary four

THE LETTER 'F'

Favorite Flower?
no favourite..

THE LETTER 'G'

Do you chew Gum?
Yes.

THE LETTER 'H'

What's your Height?
168

What color is your Hair?
Black.

THE LETTER 'I'

What's your favorite Ice cream?
Cookies & Cream, rasberry?

Have you ever Ice skated?
never

Do you play an Instrument?
played th piano long time ago

THE LETTER 'J'

What's your favorite Jelly bean?
Root Beer

Have you ever heard a really hilarious Joke?
nah

Do you wear Jewelry?
no...

THE LETTER 'K'

Who do you want to Kill?
nobody at the moment

Do you want Kids?
maybe..

Where did you have Kindergarten?
Bishan.

THE LETTER 'M'

Whats your favorite Movie?
Too many to list.

Do you still watch disney Movies?
is enchanted counted as one?

Do you like Mangoes?
Yep!

THE LETTER 'N'

Do you have a Nickname?
shld be..

What's your favorite Number?
4

Do you prefer Night over day?
night

THE LETTER 'O'

Whats your One wish?
to get what i wish for

THE LETTER 'P'

What one fear are you most Paranoid about?
idk

What's a Personality trait you look for in the opposite sex you like?
no idea

THE LETTER 'Q'

Are you Quick to judge people?
yeah..

THE LETTER 'R'

Do you watch Reality tv?
yeah

THE LETTER 'S'

Do you prefer sun or rain?
sun

Do you like Snow?
OF COURSE!

Favourite Season ?
WINTER!

THE LETTER 'T'

What Time is it?
14:29

What time did you wake up?
07:56

THE LETTER 'V'

What's the worst veggie?
Bitter Gourd

Where do you want to go on Vacation?
anywhere

THE LETTER 'W'

What's your Worst habit?
being messy

THE LETTER 'X'

Have you ever had an X-ray?
qutie a few times

Do you own a xylophone?
No.

THE LETTER 'Y'

Do you like the color yellow?
if it isnt too bright

What Year were you born in?
1994.

Whats one thing you Yearn for?
confidence?

THE LETTER 'Z'

Whats your Zodiac sign?
Dog

Do you believe in the zodiac?
okay lah

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Friday, December 14, 2007 @ 15:25

today's netball training is damn tough lah
physical in the sun.
ran 8 rounds for warm up..
it wasnt that bad..
eight rounds is already very good..
better than 12 lah..
than was physical..
50skipping, than 10 cones four of them were the tall ones th other six were slightly shorter not much difference..
than did the feet thingy..
than jump over those metal stuff
and than markers and sprinting..
three sets in the sun..

than was passes and the long pass was terrible..
lobes too..
than did some drills
and defender drills..
than did courtwork!
and had to do that sprint and jog thing..
that was super tiring..

match with anderson on tuesday..
match with another skool on wednesday
i forgot the reporting time for both..
shit

Thursday, December 13, 2007 @ 14:32

mr lee took maths tuition yesterday.
suppose to be a no handphone no sweets and no jokes class.
all cause ms li took leave to go to china for holiday D:<
but it wasnt that bad as everybody expected..
at least he joked a little but nobody laugh.
very awkward..cause he would joke and we would stare..
& symmetry was hard.really!
some sort of planes and axis..
i'm not looking forward to maths next year.

and odelia is going to LA for the next 2weeks.
grrr..leave me at tuition alone.
as in really alone.
being the only girl at the class really sucks..
especially when you dun talk to the guys..

Wednesday, December 12, 2007 @ 16:26

lalala..
netball training today was pretty good..
ran five rounds at first
than ltr ran another five rounds while passing the medicine ball and netball
rested and did drills on the stairs.
i always hate that!
super duper tiring!
did pair passes and some defender drills..
ate opposite wif carol and jas..and we talked alot:]

i realllyy love heros!

;DD

Tuesday, December 11, 2007 @ 09:44

anybody watched heros last night?
that japanese guy was suepr childish.
but i'll still watch the show! its super niceee!
i managed to find the heros dvd series at the store.
but it cost 80 bucks.
is it worth the money?

Monday, December 10, 2007 @ 14:16

yesterday..

went out wif parents to look at sofas.
kinda fun luh.
coz every sofa my sister and i see will go and sit down and kinda bounce on it xP
the sales person not really happy..hahaha..
than walked to aljunied station..and took mrt down to bugis..
my sister wanted to go borrow bks frm the very big library.(that stupid bookworm)
ate and homed..
did anybody watch 'the noose'?
its super lame and dumb.
they were suppose to report the weather.
why do they say it is raining cats & dogs.
what about raining chickens and ducks.
than it would be really foul weather.(the person reporting laughs like hell)


that was really lame.

today.
received a msg in th morning at 6.57am frm jaselyn
asking me to meet her at the skool bus stop.
i was like wth?!
go so early for what.

than i realised they changed the timing.
apparently i didnt receive the msg abt the timing change.
so did alyssa.
waited for her for quite a long time.
than finally we went off.
game with sports skool at rp.
i played very badly as usual.
i just forget abt all the movements on court and everything.
inthe end.
15-40+?
i dunnoe..

went to subway with sherylyn,alyssa,jiajia,jiahui,caroline
we all ate the subway hero meal!
cold cut trio
it is so cheap now lah. 4.90 only!
i guess i'll cut down on the sauce next time.
it was dripping out of my sandwich

i guess i'll go and shower.

Saturday, December 08, 2007 @ 14:53

i think tis is a better blogskin =)

@ 14:22

nooo..th column at the side is too small!
blogskin searching!

Friday, December 07, 2007 @ 23:00

netball training at 3 just now..

we were supposed to run 12 rounds only..
but than ended up running 15 rounds cuz we were like complaining..
still managed to clear the whole thing..
did pair ball passes wif alyssa and than did some sort of ball thingy..
we had to keep swapping partners..
haahaha..

than was some sort of defence practise..
and cheryl put me as a defender!
omg. than caroline was the attacker hahaha..
sooo weird!
than cheryl was like "why so ruan? be more aggressive!"
than she said show me ur muscle or smt like that..*jaw drops*

did 1/3 court with a super tiny semi circle..blah..
run 3 rounds for warm down and stretch!

playing against singapore sports skool on monday.. *jaw drops again*
just play our best((:
jiayous netballers! ang mo kio netball whoooosh!

@ 10:49

yesterday

went to the hospital to visit my grandma..
she has suspected dengue..
and her blood count was very low
19 i think..
so the Doctor said she must hav complete rest in bed.
cuz if she just gently knock the bed or the table she would hav internal bleeding or a giant bruise.
oh.and he said she could not brush her teeth either.or else her gums would bleed.
but the doctor was very young and cute..lol

so i was standing there watching the blood transfusion. i was nearly freaking out.
i thought they had to poke more needles of something.
but turn out just
errr..connect some more tubes..
but the stuff which was flowing into the tubes was yellow.
so my grandma was rather worried.how come blood not red?

so my (scientific) sister took the explaining..zzz

Wednesday, December 05, 2007 @ 22:15

enchanted is SUPER DUPER NICEE!!!!

TOTALLY LUV THAT MOVIE!! :D
i wna watch that again!! :DD
it is really really really nice!

watched enchanted at j8 wif jiamin before training.
we asked for the back seats and she gave us the last row but it was quite okay.
since it was so early in the morning and no shops were open.
went down to play wif the interactive screen
than went up to arcade.
watched jiamin play hse of the dead.zz
than she bought drinks and went into the cinema..

the first part of the show was cartoon-ish.
basicly it was cartoon.wif lots of songs abt true loves kiss(yuck)
than she kinda got pushed into this waterfall?
and came up into the man hole.lol
than the story goes on.
and finally the good wins and th bad dies.(:

ate at j8 foodcourt aft that and we watched the power rangers performance.
quite dumb.
took bus 88 to skool and tied hair.
took out ball cage and just sat around.
..
did pyramid for warm up.
one two three four three two one:))
it wasnt as bad as last time.
than did foot stuff..
and than we had to carry our partner.
alyssa could carry me but i couldnt carry her.
so embarrassing...
carried jackie in the end..
than did ball handing..
than half way mr ling walked past and say that i looked like weizhen...
lol..i dun think we look alike..
than did some sort of defence thingy.and jumps and had to do skip 1000 times wif the skipping rope.
100 right and left.300 running.500 double leg..
and i kena whip by the skipping rope!
than did teamball..hahah..
that was fun!
weizhen and cheryl joined in(:
didn't warm down..and rushed off for tuition..

ms tay cut bangs! and she looks cute in it! hahahah

Tuesday, December 04, 2007 @ 14:33

Instructions: Between each line of words you have to pick one favourite by bolding it.

001. Coke ; Pepsi ; Moutain Dew ; Sprite ; 7Up ; Diet ; Nestea ; Crush
002. American Idol ; America's Got Talent ; America's Next Top Model
003. Minesweeper ; Solitaire ; Hearts ; Backgammon ; Checkers ; Freecell
004. COSMOgirl! ; Teen Vogue ; Seventeen ; J-14 ; Teen People
005. TV ; computer ; music ; movies
006. Park ; movie theatre ; mall ; friend's house
007. Haircut ; manicure/pedicure ; waxing ; facial
008. Soap ; toothpaste ; shower gel ; bubbles
009. Ciggarettes ; drugs ; alcohol ; none
010. Earrings ; bracelets ; necklaces ; anklets ; rings
011. Prep ; goth ; skater ; rocker ; bitch
012. Mom ; dad ; sister ; brother
013. Blonde ; brunette ; redhead ; black hair
014. Dog ; cat ; rabbit ; hampster ; guinea pig ; mouse ; ferret ; lizard
015. Boys ; girls ; both
016. People ; animals
017. Cute ; sexy ; beautiful ; pretty ; good looking
018. Purse ; wallet ; bag ; backpack ; pocket
019. Nose ; eyes ; ears ; smile ; teeth
020. Pen ; pencil ; marker ; crayon ; pencilcrayon ; sharpie
021. Mp3 player ; iPod ; CD player ; boom box
022. CD's ; cassettes ; DVD's
023. Horror ; comedy ; drama ; thriller ; action/adventure ; fantasy ; romance
024. Surveys ; icons ; quotes ; pictures ; banners
025. Numbers ; letters ; symbols
026. Water ; pop/soda ; juice
027. Sun ; rain ; snow ; hail ; wind
028. Make-up ; hair products ; skin care products
029. Clothes ; jewellery ; trends/fashion
030. School ; summer ; summer school ; winter/spring break
031. Building snowmen ; making snow angels ; having a snow fight
032. Making surveys ; taking surveys ; posting surveys ; finding surveys
033. Rock ; pop ; hiphop ; alternative ; rap ; r&b ; classic rock ; punk rock ; metal
034. Lip gloss ; eyeliner ; foundation ; eyeshadow ; mascara ; none
035. Reading ; writing ; singing/dancing ; band ; couch potato
036. Chips ; cake ; ice cream ; brownies ; popcorn
037. CSI ; Law & Order ; Missing ; Without a Trace ; Judge Judy
038. USA ; Canada ; South America ; Europe ; Asia ; Australia ; Africa
039. Laguna Beach ; The Hills ; Sweet 16 ; Made ; Room Raiders ; Pimp My Ride ; Yo Momma
040. Pizza ; burgers ; hot dogs ; chicken wings ; soup ; salad
041. Pink ; blue ; green ; red ; yellow ; orange ;
042. Videos ; songs ; soundtracks ; musicals
043. Reality TV shows ; comedies ; soap opera's ; series ; crime shows
044. Webcam ; digital camera ; regular camera ; picture phone
045. Stickers ; temporary tattoos ; nail decals
046. Cups ; mugs ; clear glasses
047. Glasses ; contacts ; braces ; head gear
048. Muchmusic ; MTV ; MTV2 ; VH1 ; BET
049. Beyonce ; Britney ; Christina ; Avril Lavigne ; Hilary Duff
050. Eminem ; 50 Cent ; Joel Madden ; Gerard Way ; Pete Wentz

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@ 14:11

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense.
NO CHEATING!
4. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
---------------------------------------------------------

How are you feeling today?
I Am Just A Kid-Simple Plan
[feeling childish?]

Will you get far in life?
Miracle-Cascada
[erm..]

How do your friends see you?
When I'm with you-Simple Plan
[no comments]

Will you get married?
Everytime We Touch-Cascada
[i guess so]

What's your best friend's theme song?
Welcome To My Life-Simple Plan
[maybe]

What is the story of your life?
Right Back In The Water-Jesse Mccartney
[err..idk]

What was primary school like?
Hakuna Matata-Disney
[I REALLY HAVE NO COMMENTS]

How can you get ahead in life?
Rockstar-Nickelback
[live like a rockstar?]

What is the best thing about your friends?
He Said She Said-Ashley Tisdale
[haha..idk as well]

What is in store for this weekend?
Right Where You Want Me-Jesse Mccartney
[err..be where my friends want me to be? lol]

What song describes you?
Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
[rawrr. i dont know. ]

To describe your grandparents?
With Love-Hilary Duff
[i luv them :)]

How is your life going?
Bet On It-Troy
[no comments]

What song will they play at your funeral?
I Won't Be There-Simple Plan
[i dun think so..]

How does the world see you?
I Don't Dance-Chad & Ryan
[i don't dance! i suck at it]

Will you have a happy life?
Makes Me Wonder-Maroon 5
[i'm wondering the same thing too]

What do your friends really think of you?
只对你有感觉-飞轮海 & Hebe
[idk..]

Do people secretly lust after you?
Gotta Go My Own Way-Troy & Gabriella
[maybe..hahah]

How can I make myself happy?
爱爱爱-方大同
[by loving myself?]

What should you do with your life?
Graduation(Friends Forever)-Vitamin C
[be friends with ppl?]

Will you ever have children?
不能说的秘密-周杰伦
[i guess nobody knows]

Happy marriage?
Umbrella(feat Jay-Z)-Rihanna
[no comments]

Miscarriage?
I'd Do Anything-Simple Plan
[i hope that's a NO]

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@ 13:52

more quizes!

What is your favorite song of all time?
err..now is accidentally in love

What is your favorite color?
black,lime green and neon orange

How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
lots of wood?

left handed or right handed?
right handed.

What size shoe do you wear?
err..either 8half or 9 or is it 10..

Would you rather be hot or cold?
cold.

Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
neither

Why did the chicken cross the road?
to get to the other side?

Where is Waldo?
no idea

What was your last thought?
i'm going to watch enchanted!

Firefox, Internet Explorer, Netscape, or other?
Internet Explorer

Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?
milk and cookies.

Favorite fruit?
honeydew

Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?
bad cough

Are you a cat or a dog person?
dog i suppose

Would you rather be blind or deaf?
neither

Do you eat cold cereal at night?
sometimes

Kill the spider or let it out?
i'm scream and run

Do you shower every single day?
Of course!

Boat or bus?
bus.i usually vommit on boats

What is your favorite Pj Fabric
i dun wear pjs

Where do you want to travel next?
Australia!

What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out
stare.

What is your favorite food?
lots!

Do you read harry potter books?
yup

What is your favorite place?
anything..

If you could have one super human power what would you choose?
telepathy

Have you had a beer in the last week?
nah..

Vitamin Water or Gatorade?
gatorade

Flip flops or sandles?
flip-flops :D

What do you do on fridays?
use the com and laze around?

Do you like bananas?
yeah..(:

@ 13:28

i'm going to watch enchanted tml!!
before netball training:D

and netball training is from 3-6 so that cheryl can come

Sunday, December 02, 2007 @ 22:38

i am sorry for the stuff that i have done.
to make people feel upset and angry.
and to lose their hope and confidence in me.

i'm feeling terrible right now.
why did i choose to make that move?
now i suppose shes upset that i changed my decision.
and i didnt mean to hurt her.
i just don't know what to do.
i'm feeling emo rite now.
leave me alone.

Saturday, December 01, 2007 @ 15:17

i'm feeling hyper active now!
and i'll think i shall put a song to my blog!
and i feel like ending every sentece with a exclamation mark!
okay.that was lame..

might be going swimming ltr if my menses isnt too heavy
i mean..it seems to be stopping
so yeah..
and if i go swimming ltr i can stop by j8 to rent movies!!
more things to do!

went to subway eat just now with my sis.
they were having this promotion on..
one sandwich + one drink + two cookies = 4.90!
super cheap!! haha..i bought two sets
which mean four cookies!!
i gave my sister half:)
or else i'll get an over dose of chocolate frm those cookies
but they are seriously awesome!
the chocolate is very sweet xDDD

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welcome
Hurt-Christina Aguilera

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, by hurting you.